May 25, 2010

10 years ago this summer.....

-I had just finished my junior year of college and was back on campus ready to start our summer New Ed rehearsals.
-I was serving as student director for the most interesting group of summer New Ed I think HLG has ever had!
-Weast's dad had a heart attack, which meant Weast was headed back to OK and I was in charge indefinitely! Scary, I know!
-I was standing in the lobby outside the bathrooms in some building on SBU's campus during mom and pop weekend for Super Summer with all of summer New Ed and all other HLG students working that week, when Micky Ary broke the news to us that Tim Champ (HLG alum, fiancee of a fellow New Edder -though she wasn't with us that summer-, and good friend to many of us) had passed away. It was unbelievable! We had no idea what to do! And we didn't have our fearless leader with us for two more days. It was a miserable two days. I don't think any of us had ever been so glad to see Weast as we were that Tues. afternoon when she walked through the doors of the SBU auditorium. I am pretty sure we just stood there crying and hugging, not saying a word, for at least a full 5 mins. Tim was my first "non-boyfriend" boyfriend at college. (Those of you who attended HLG or any other Christian college, you know exactly what I mean!) He was the fiancee of what I would have to say was one of the funniest, sweetest, and best ladies New Ed has ever seen. Did we stay at Super Summer? Did we leave to go be with Amber? Our dramas were the main crux of the services each night, so our leaving would leave a huge hole. But, we really wanted to be there to wrap our arms around Amber and cry with her. But, after discussing it, we decided Weast would go, but we would stay. I know there were a lot of people angry with us for that decision, but it was truly what we thought was best at the time. Tim loved youth and poured out much of his energy to help them learn and know Christ, so we felt that staying at Super Summer was a great way to honor him. It was a long, hard week. I was the only one who wasn't in charge of a group, so I had all day long to pretty much do nothing but think about Tim and Amber. I remember, the night that we were told about Tim's death, my group had been rehearsing and was unable to eat dinner. Two of the week's worship band members took me to McDonald's to get food for the team. As we were driving, I looked out the window and saw the sun just beginning to set. I remember thinking, "Wow! That is so pretty. And Tim is now seeing that sunset from the other side! I bet his view is amazing!!!" It was very hard, at the time, to accept that, no matter how much faith we had, no matter how we pleaded and begged God, Tim was gone. Many times, His ways are not our ways...but they are always higher than our ways! It would be almost three months before we would get to see Amber and hug her and cry with her and share memories with her. She is a strong woman and God has now blessed her with a great husband and two beautiful children!
-I took my first trip outside of the United States when our summer New Ed team became the first of many to travel to Switzerland to participate in Euroventure. Back then, it was through AweStar ministries. We spent a week in Switzerland and a week in Hungary. It was a lot of fun, it was crazy, it was weird. Our worship band that week was a little known group (at the time) by the name of Mercy Me. (It was so long ago that Bart, Nathan and Robby didn't have children, Mike wasn't married, Jim was still engaged, and Barry wasn't even in the group, yet!) I got to see the Swiss Alps and worship to I Can Only Imagine while staring out the window and seeing all the beauty that God had made in those mountains. I was accosted by a drunk man in a Hungarian subway while no one helped! Luckily, my ignoring him paid off and he eventually left! I got to go white water rafting for the first and only time in my life. It was a lot of fun and, if the waters were as calm as they were for us that day, I would totally do it again.
-I met the man who I thought was the man of my dreams. Thankfully, I was wrong.
-I was only a few months away from meeting, for the second time (the third, if you ask him...but I have no memory at all of the first meeting, so I am pretty sure he is making it up...JK!) the man who would become my husband.
-I was trying to prepare myself for leaving the comfort of New Ed and heading into the scary world of Praise Song. Not so much scary because the people were scary, I just didn't know them, and well, I'm not really all that musical! I can sing and that's about it...and I don't really sing all that well...I can't sing harmony, so...well....it was a fun year and that's where I met and fell in love with Kevin, so, regardless of my musical ability, it was all God moving things together as they needed to be!
-I was about a year away from graduation and had no idea what I would be doing after I finished. There wasn't really anything I had a passion or desire to do. OK, that's not true. If I could have travelled in New Ed for the rest of my life, I totally would have...no joke. I would still do that today if my family could go with me!
-I was preparing to say goodbye to my sweet friend Lauren Allen as she was graduating a year early and heading off to seminary. Man, we had some fun times that summer. "Take it home with ya, ladies!"
-I had no idea that I was heading into my hardest year of college. The classes really weren't that bad. I mean, I was a Comm Arts major when the degree was mostly theatre classes, so that was easy. But, the living situation was tough. One roommate was trying to finish a degree in three years that normally takes four, and could probably easily take five if you didn't want it to drive you crazy on the way there. The other roommate was trying to plan a wedding. We were all heading in different directions and I think a little crazy about graduating and not really knowing what was next. I was really missing the two constants we'd had up until that point, Lauren and JacQueline. Fortunately, we have all grown up and turned out just fine! One is a missionary for the IMB and is expecting her first baby in Sept., and the other is about to make a huuuuuuuuge move to AZ with the hubs and two sweet kids.
-I had no idea what great things God had in store for me, even though I was full of doubt and fear. What a great and mighty God we serve. He alone changes times and seasons. He alone sets up kings and deposes them! Praise Him that He doesn't always give us what we want, but rather what He alone knows we need!

May 10, 2010

Working In Your Strengths...

Yeah, that was the title for our FPU class tonight. Boy, it really made me think. I know what my strengths are...organization, remembering the details, getting things done, and being bossy. Pretty much, I should be a personal assistant...if I were single and had no children, I would make a better "Mrs. Landingham" than Mrs. Landingham! I am great at making order out of other people's chaos, keeping things moving on time, and getting the task done well...well, at least I am good at that in a job type setting...at home...chaos is king, I can't get on a schedule to save my life, and my house constantly looks like a tornado went through it. So, since my job is being a mom and taking care of the house, I guess that means I should be fired? Not sure! But, I really am going to buck up and work harder to get more organized here. First thing, getting things ready for a yard sale to get rid of a lot of the clutter in the house. Man, we have so much stuff that we just don't use and don't need. I don't even know why we bought or kept most of it!

The lesson also talked about making a three year career plan...hard to do at this point...but...then I realized...in three years I will only be a year away from having both kids in school! WOW! It feels like I'll have 10 years before I have an "empty" house 7 hours of the day. What will I do with my time then? Will I go back to work part-time? If so, what is it that I want to do? Are there steps that I need to be taking now in order to get ready or that? Then, I step back and see that, due to my control-freak nature and need to be run by a schedule and clock, that I must take things one day at a time! Today has enough trouble of it's own and I don't need to be borrowing from tomorrow's. I can make a "dream" plan of what I think I may want to be doing in three years, but today...today I get to love on, hug, teach, play, and spend my days with two of the sweetest kids in the world...and that's the best, albeit hardest some days, job in the world. I feel so blessed to be able to be home with my kiddos during this time in their lives. Lord, help me to enjoy everyday, make the most of every teachable moment You place in my path, and never forget that it all comes from you!

May 02, 2010

Old Blogs

So, tonight, or early this morning, rather, I decided to just type my name in google and see what came up. I found an old bebo.com blog that, in all honesty, I don't even remember creating or writing. I think the blog entries are the emails that I was sending to friends while we were on the road with the Bibleman Live 2005 tour. It was so fun to go back and read those emails. God did a lot of things for us and with us while on that tour. Check out this link to read the posts. Hope you enjoy!!! Not sure why there are no updates after the end of June...but I think you'll have fun reading what's there! http://www.bebo.com/Blog.jsp?MemberId=1333040

May 01, 2010

Randomness

So, there are a ton of random thoughts just going through my head, so I thought I would share:

--It has been so fun watching Ethan start to stand and walk. He can now stand on his own, but he still has to hold onto someone or something to walk...and he totally looks like a drunk, but it's so cute! Anyway, he is now to the point where all he needs is to hold onto one of your fingers and he can walk. I keep thinking, "It's one finger, how much help can that be? Just let go and walk." But, as soon as you let go, he either just stops walking and stands still or sits down. He won't even try to walk on his own. I keep thinking that, with many things our children do, there has to be some kind of spiritual application to gain from this...but...it hasn't come to me yet, so if you have one after reading this, please let me know!
--Sophie finished her last Pre-K class this week. I can't believe the year has gone this fast. We are still looking ahead to next year. I am trying to figure out a schedule that will work. I want to be sure she has fun, yet I want to work in a little learning, too. Any ideas on an easy schedule we can do? Ethan usually naps right after lunch. Sophie and I both work better in the mornings. I don't want her to feel like all she does is homework and housework, but I want to work both into the schedule.
--Still working on being able to get up before the kiddos so that I can do my Bible study time and exercise before they get up. Ideally, I would like to be up about 5:30, but find that hasn't been happening very consistently. It seems that no matter how early or late I go to bed, I just can't get up before 6:30, but with Ethan waking up between 6:30 and 7:00, that doesn't leave much time for Bible study and no time for exercise. Part of the problem is that no matter how many hours of sleep I get, I wake up feeling as though I didn't sleep at all. Any ideas how to fix that?
--I love Francine Rivers books. I totally think they should turn The Mark of the Lion series (or at least the first two books) into movies. I think they would be amazing and I think they would appeal to many groups, even though there is a Christian theme. And I think they should cast Joaquin Phoenix in it. Just my humble opinion, of course.
--Really wishes that Aaron Sorkin were a Christian and would write Christian films and TV shows. That man is a genius and an amazing writer!
Ok, I think those are all the random thoughts for now! Hope you have a great week!