October 28, 2009


For those of you who haven't heard, I will be heading out this weekend to do a few live shows and film a new Bibleman episode in Albuquerque, NM. What a fun journey it has been playing Biblegirl. It all started in such a crazy way and to think that 7 years have gone by since it all began is mind boggling for me. When I said yes to this, I never dreamed that I would end up doing it this long, or be on the road for several months traveling country to do live shows! What a blessing it has been to be able to do something that I love so much for His Kingdom! I remember that there was a point a few years back when I was really questioning whether or not this ministry was vital, doing any good, or even needed. Then I went to see "The Passion of the Christ". When the movie finished, I just sat there in tears. I thought, "Lord, this was amazing. It was not only a reminder of what you have done from me, but, from an artist's perspective, it was just so well done. Lord, why do we even bother with Bibleman, it doesn't even compare to this!" Then, almost as if I heard Him whisper directly into my ear, He said, "This is why you MUST do Bibleman. Everyone, regardless of age, needs to know that I have sent my Son for them. This makes ministry like Bibleman very important." I have never questioned since then the need for Bibleman or whether or not I want to be part of such a vital ministry to reach children! Please pray for us this weekend that we will be like-minded, focused on Christ, and that He will reach many children for His kingdom!


So, it's been awhile since I posted a real blog...I have wanted to for quite some time, but every time I sit down, the words just won't come...I guess I need to start writing down the ideas I get when I get them so I won't forget! Getting old is tough!!!! ;)

Ethan is almost 7 months old, Sophie is one month closer to being 4, and I turn 31 tomorrow. Where has all the time gone? As I sit pondering, so many things come to mind. Never in my life did I imagine that I would be married with two children and staying at home with them. Never growing up did I ever want to be a stay-at-home mom. I love working...it makes me feel useful and gives me the structure I need to be most productive...yet, here I am being a stay-at-home mom. Don't get me wrong, I love it! I love being able to see all the changes in my kids day to day, love getting to laugh with them, cry with them, play with them, hug them, and all the other things that go along with it. I love being able to be right there when something, good or bad, happens. I feel very blessed that God has allowed this to work out for us. But, I must also admit that it's a struggle for me everyday! Working, in all reality, is so much easier for me! I need structure! I need a schedule that I can rely on and know by heart! I am a very goal oriented and task oriented person, so work just works for me. I have such a hard time with this at home. When I am home and I make a schedule, I become a slave to that schedule, regardless of how it affects the children. The clock then rules my life and I leave no time for children, Kevin, or God. Now, I know, you're thinking, "You're home with the kids all day, how can you not have time for them?!?!" I think the same thing. But the constant struggle I feel is that I can't do the things around the house that I feel I should do (cleaning, laundry, just those "duties" that have to get done to have an orderly house) without sacrificing time with the kids. Basically, I feel it's either clean the house or hang out with the kids and I can't seem to find a happy medium where I get to do both. How embarrassing and aggravating it is to know that I am home all day and still can't have a clean house!!! And fitting in quiet time? How do any moms, stay at home or those working, fit that in? I literally give my daughter a 1/2 hour bath everyday just so I can do my Bible study...again...the feeling that I can't do both in the same day...I must choose one over the other...I know I should choose the Bible study, it's best for me and my children that I know and follow the word of God...but the kids need me to be with them, too! I feel so guilty because I often find myself envious of those moms who get to work...which I know sounds sooooo stupid to those moms who would give anything to be at home with their kids! I can't really explain it other than that's when I feel useful, effective, and that I have a sense of order instead of constant chaos! And it's not that I don't feel appreciated for all that I do at home...Kevin is constantly saying how nice it is to have me home and what a good job I do and thanking me for all I do! Not really sure why I am spilling all this out on the page...I guess just to ask for prayer that I would find my fulfillment in Christ rather than earthly things...that I would seek Him on ways to use every moment He has given me at home with my sweet little blessings to point them to Him...and that I would be able to have consistent, daily time in His word and in prayer! Also, any advice on how to make this whole thing work a little more smoothly would be greatly appreciated!

October 11, 2009

Corn Maze

We let Maryssa and Sophie lead us through the corn maze. I didn't get a whole lot of good footage because they kept getting so far in front of us. They were running and the adults were walking as slowly as possible so as not to slip on the mud and land on our bums!

Oh, my sweet little Sophie girl!

Ok, so this first video is what we were trying to get her to do...the second was what happened on the first take! Oh, sometimes it is so hard to be disciplined when she is so funny!

My handsome little man!

Some cute Ethan videos!

October 08, 2009

My Unanswered Questions from The West Wing

--So, what is it that Josh wrote on the inside of the book he gave Donna for Christmas in the first season?
--Where was Ryan in the episode when Donna is on the phone with his roommate looking for him?
--Where did Moira Kelly's character go?
--Why was there no real explanation of where Sam went when he left? I mean, we knew he wasn't going to win the election, but why no details of where he ended up going?
--What happened with Will and Kate?
--Why couldn't Josh just say, "Donna, I love you. I've loved you for years and can't imagine my life without you. Will you marry me?"

I'll be adding to this as I think of more while we watch The West Wing throughout the next several months!!!!

I thought of one more...Why wasn't Sam at Leo's funeral? Seriously, Ainsley Hays was there, but not Sam? What is that about?

Oh, another one...where did Ainsley Hays go (wait, CSI Miami...hee hee) and why did she suddenly come back...did she get the job in the Santos administration?

And yet another, did Otto end up working in the Santos administration? If so, in what capacity?

I think we need a one week mini-series to finish up The West Wing and answer all my questions! Plus, I just want to see Josh and Donna one more time...and they better still be together!

October 06, 2009

Random Musings

It has been forever, it seems, since I sat down and wrote an actual post...I have sat at the computer several times, but had nothing to say...then the times I had something to write, there just wasn't the time. Sophie has said so many cute things...wish I had written them down because I so don't remember them now! Hope you've enjoyed the videos that I have posted. Man, I have really enjoyed having a camera that does video with sound!!!! So, be ready, there will be many more videos to come!! I'll probably stick to putting the pics on FaceBook. Anyway, here are just some random things I have been thinking:

--I love fall! I love that it's warm enough to need light, long sleeves or a light jacket, but not cold enough to need a parka. And the leaves changing are so beautiful. What a beautiful time of year. I am so glad that God created this beauty for us to see and remind us of His love and faithfulness.
--The other day, though I can't remember what we were talking about, Sophie actually looked at me and said, "Mom, that's not practical." Where did she get that?
--Why is it that I can memorize a script in mere minutes, but I can't seem to memorize scripture to save my life...unless it's in a script? I am working on this, but it sure is coming along slowly!
--I love my church. It is full of great people with such loving hearts. They love me and my family and take such good care of us!
--I LOVE CHILDREN'S THEATRE! I went to a show today and it brought back so many memories. Children's shows are so much fun...kids react to everything and have so much fun with the shows that, as an actor, you have no choice but to have fun right along with them! Oh, I can't wait until I can be in another one!
--I am still working on getting something of a schedule to be sure that I get in all I need to get in during the day. I almost have something that works, but it really is still a work in progress. It's really hard for me trying to have a schedule and not be consumed with the schedule and the time...but it is getting better.
--I really enjoy chocolate milk, hot chocolate, and well, chocolate.
--I am much more prideful than I ever realized, it's just that I think I am passive aggressive about my pride. So many times I am serving so that I can feel better and feel useful, not because I have the heart of servant. I sooo desire the heart of a servant. I am still praying fervently that God will remove the pride and replace it with His heart of service!

Well, I better get heading to bed so I can be ready for the day tomorrow. Things have been good here. Everyday is an adventure and I am enjoying the ride!

Ethan's Laugh

There is just nothing better than a baby laughing, huh? And Ethan never laughs harder than when Sophie is being silly...which is most of the time because she is quite the entertainer! Anyway, here's a cute video of his new laugh, sorry it's so short!