July 20, 2009

Service

I am reading the book "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World" (boy does that title nail me down!) right now and it is so eye opening! I am such a Martha, and not the good Martha from the story with Lazarus...the too busy to realize she could be sitting and learning at Jesus' feet Martha. As I was reading the other day, I was reminded of my senior year of college.

I was a double major in Communication Arts and Speech education getting ready to graduate. I had no idea what I wanted to do...other than be in New Ed forever! I remember just feeling totally lost, and it had nothing to do with lack of open doors, or even motivation, for a career. See, I am a person that is really good at service, perhaps better stated that I am at my best when I am busy, whether it's truly service or not. In college, it was really easy for me to be busy with service. During my freshman year, I travelled with Players. I spent the next two school years and summers travelling to churches with New Edition, and my senior year I served with Praise Song. I always had a place to serve. But, here I was, with just months left until I was on my own, and I had no place to serve. Being in the same church every week was a foreign thought. What was I going to do? I felt so lost because I didn't just have a place to serve as soon as I was finished. I actually felt lost for almost 6 more months after that because I wasn't busy with service. It wasn't until later that I realized that I was so busy serving that I was missing out on the better part by sitting at Jesus' feet being taught. I was focused on being busy and trying to make myself feel better by serving all the time. Now, I am not saying that we shouldn't serve, by any means, but that there are times when we need to get alone with God and sit at His feet and soak up all He has for us! This is still very hard for me. I don't let go of things well and I can't walk away once I have started something. I am pretty much an all or nothing type of personality, which can be good or bad. I know there are a lot of times when I am still busying myself with service, rather than serving from the heart or taking time to learn from God's word and prayer that I should. Being here on vacation, it has been so nice to be able to head out each morning, away from the house, and just get quiet with God. I am surrounded by the beauty of God's creation and everything else just seems to drift away! Oh, that I can continue to do this when I get home. Lord, help me to make this a priority each day. Let me see my need for you in every area of my life, especially my service for Your Kingdom!

Just a few pics!






















Here are some recent pics...I am still working on pics from the TX trip...I broke our camera when I covered it in water after attempting to slide down the slip-n-slide...something an adult should never do!












July 17, 2009

Randomness

So, it's late and Kevin is putting Sophie to bed and I just was sitting here thinking some totally random things...here you go!



*So, while watching The West Wing the other night, I finally heard the phrase that describes me best...I may not have it verbatim, but it went something like this:
Pres. Bartlett to Josh Lyman: You know the difference between us, Josh? I want to be the man. You want to be the guy the man depends on.
That totally describes me. Who would have thought I would have found such insight through Aaron Sorkin!



*I am totally addicted to Deadliest Catch on the Discovery Channel. I love the boat The Northwestern and would love to meet any of the crew. Sig is my favorite of all the captains!



*There are times that I watch the Disney Channel even when Sophie is nowhere to be found. It was my favorite channel growing up. I loved watching Kids Incorporated (back when Fergie was just Stacy Ferguson), The Mickey Mouse Club, and all that fun Sunday afternoon programming (but I can't remember the names of those shows!)

*I played volleyball in high school.

*I love dark chocolate!

*I love the Harry Potter books and movies!

*I was a few months shy of my 25th birthday when I got married. I had been out of college for two years...Kevin on the other hand...was a senior in college.

*The only things I cook well are chicken and roast.

*My daughter was born April 6. Three years later, my son was born April 5.

*When I was younger (like in high school), my dream was to be in a Billy Graham film with Stephen Curtis Chapman.

*I still cry at commercials and sad movies!

*I literally watched the same movie every day my senior year of college.

*My first and only stage kiss was my freshman year of college with a guy that turned out to be one of my best friends...and he married one of my other best friends!

*I was a cheerleader in 8th grade.

*From Kindergarten to 12th grade, I attened 3 different school districts in two different states.

*I met my husband at Hannibal-LaGrange College in Hannibal, MO. We met when we were both on the ministry team Praise Song.

*Is actually sitting here watching Golden Girls right now!

*Used to watch Nick at Night every night while in high school. My favorite show was The Monkees.

I am sure there is more, but it is late and I need to get to bed. Sorry this wasn't very interesting!

July 16, 2009

We are in Texas...Finally!

After two full days of driving, we finally landed in Haskell, TX at Kevin's parents house yesterday at about 4:15 p.m. This is the first time we have driven this particular trip as a whole family. It actually went pretty well. We stopped about every 2 to 2 1/2 hours, mainly because Ethan needed to eat. The stops took longer than I hoped ,but we still made good time. The kids did great! Ethan slept most of the time and Sophie used my MP3 player, her DVD player, and crayons and work books to keep herself occupied. I was so impressed with how well she behaved and dealt with having to be shut up in a car for two days. At each stop, while I was feeding Ethan, Kevin got out and played with her. At three of the stops, Kevin got out her bat and ball and they played...the people driving by and pulling in all thought that was pretty funny. We made lots of people smile on our trip because of that. I haven't put the pics up on the computer, yet, so I don't have any to upload with this entry, but I will upload them soon. We have already had a full day walking out to the tank and back, playing baseball, coloring, and all sorts of games! We weren't able to stay out for long, it's about 106 degrees here today and it's just too hot for much of anything. We are waiting until about 6:30 or so to go swimming so that it won't be quite so hot outside! Anyway, that's what we have been up to so far. Sorry it's a little boring, but we are having fun and glad to be on vacation for about 2 weeks. Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!

July 08, 2009

Nothing Witty This Way Comes

OK, so that has to be the dorkiest title, but I just couldn't think of anything. I feel like blogging, yet nothing is coming to mind! I have had a long week, but a productive one, nonetheless. Some awesome college friends are coming to spend the weekend with us, so I have been cleaning like crazy...but...of course...when I decided to clean, I also decided to rearrange several things in the house, so I really just ended up making a bigger mess than I had when I started cleaning.

I had all these grand plans when the week began...I had even divided up the house cleaning day by day so that I only had a few rooms to clean each day. I planned to take Sophie to the pool pretty much every afternoon, so I knew I had to work pretty hard in the mornings to get things done. Of course, having a plan doesn't mean that plan works or that I would stick to it! I was already off the plan by 9 a.m. on Monday. Boy, I sure didn't make it very far! I never did get back on that plan, either, but the house is looking good and I like the small little things I did to rearrange (and my husband has the ceiling in the basement halfway done, so that was just a bonus!). But, all this served as a reminder of something God was teaching/telling me during our Life Action revival. Now, I know this is really nothing all that earth shattering to most, but if you know me, you will know it was a huuuuge deal.

You see, somewhere along the way in my 30 years of living, I became a control freak. I don't really know how it happened...I don't remember being this way in high school, or even college, but I sure am now. I must have a list to follow and know what time it is at all times. Everything I do is dictated by a schedule and a clock...EVERYTHING! I cannot stand to be late, and because of that, am super early to everything! (Just ask Kevin, Jessica, Jana, and Jess!!!!) My day is planned out by looking at what time I have to be somewhere and planning the day backwards from there trying to be sure that I have time to get there 15-20 minutes early, just in case something goes wrong and I need more time. If I somehow get off the schedule, then I begin to look at the list and decide what it is that must be removed from the list in order still get where I need to be on time. Being even one minute late is NOT an option! Usually things put off the list are quiet time, eating, and showering. (I know, TMI). I am so controlled by the clock and my list, that my family is often made very miserable and is ignored in order to do those things on the list.

You see, the list and the clock become my priority, not my family. I have an obsession to get all of that accomplished at the cost of my family. This is part of the reason why God led me to quit my part time job last fall. I put more effort and time into that job than I did my family, which is never right. But, even that didn't really open my eyes to this problem. It wasn't until one morning that I was so mad that Kevin wasn't in the car and ready to go because he had taken one minute to eat a bowl of cereal that I realized I had a problem. What a silly thing to be mad about when I had planned extra time in our morning schedule anyway! We wouldn't be late, just not there when I had decided would be best to be there! Wow! I have issues! Anyway, I am really working on this...trying to be much more flexible and not so governed by the clock that I miss out on all God has for me...after all, I am not the one in control...the clock is not in control...but God is. Living by the clock as I had been doing was really my way of saying that I didn't believe God had it all in the first place. Keep praying for me in this area...it is not easy for me to walk away from things or not to follow my list and my clock...but I know that's what I need to work on and am doing so. Hope this wasn't too long or boring for those of you reading! May God bless your day!